SRIXON

i want to be happy. i WANT to be happy. but i'm tired, and annoyed at my low productivity and at the conversation i just overheard. i want to be carefree and be able to study in peace but it certainly isn't happening . home isn't quite like home, and not like sch is all that geat. life just sucks.

hmm... this is so annoying. why do they have to let me hear that damned conversation and make me troubled about whatever they said.
and i don't understand why people just don't understand me. just cause i'm always like whatever doesn't mean that everything i say is a damn joke. yea i mean i wanna be happy and stuff and i'm trying to be but i'm human and aren't i entitled to some time where i am troubled with something and it isn't funny. cos when i try and confide in someone, people just go haha haha. my problems aren't anymore trivial than of yours so why can't u all just listen and if there isn't any constructive comments, try not to laugh it off. please. i am so pathetic and loser-fied. just an abyss filled with troubles...
maybe it isn't anyone else's fault and that i'm just an ass such that people find lending me a listening ear a waste of time.
i feel so depressed and retarded. grrrrrrr....